Dear Noah: On Your Birthday.

Dear Noah: 

Where do I begin? You're the only person who gives me writer's block. 

You're the only one who has, does and always will see me. 

You're the only one who saw me letting my dreams flutter away, only to catch them and keep them safe for me while my heart was away from them. 

You're the only one who had me so confused I could only react by being rude and rebellious around you. 

You were the first to read my writings and beg for more. 

You were the first to remember every word I said, even the ones I didn't know you heard. 

You were the first I told my biggest hurt to. 

You picked out the red and clear gummy bears because you knew they were my favorite. 

You listened when I questioned God and never tried to push your beliefs on me, knowing all along I'd find my way back home. 

You stopped in your tracks each time I entered the room. 

I could see the breath leaving your body when I smiled.

Other guys made me feel attractive, but never beautiful. 

To many men I may have been one of several pretty girls in a room, but to you I was the only girl you could see. 

You challenged my mind with our hours and hours of theology discussions. 

You challenged my heart with your own.

When I see you hug your boys necks my spirit leaps. 

When I see your face light up when you talk about ministry by heart literally bursts. 

You were the first to pray over me/with me. 

When I hear you speaking to the heavens on my behalf my breath is taken far from me. 

I know we've had it rough. 

I know some day more rough times will come our way. 

I know we've lost a few people along the way, but we've tripled our loss with even more people who love us beyond our past. 

I know our story can be hard to take hold of to so many, but I know when they see the way my eyes light up when I hear your name, they get it. 

So yes, we are celebrating your birthday. This day changed my life forever before I even knew it. 

“So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday.”

-Noah 

I'll be seein you,

Allie.